Day 37: A Confession

I have a confession to make. This has been weighing on my chest for a really long time. I can feel the judgement already. I know it really is a huge deal, and I shouldn't treat it so lightly. It's all over social media, all of my friends and family are talking about it. How could I ignore this for so long? How could I just pretend like it isn't happening? I feel ashamed.

So here it is. I hope you can all look at me the same after this.

I don't watch The Walking Dead.

I just don't. I watch the first season and never watched it again. It's not that I think it's a bad show. I just lost track and never caught up. I don't feel like wasting hours of my precious time catching up on 5 seasons of a show that I have, thus far, survived just fine without. I do LOVE the bad lip reading videos of this show though! You can find them on YouTube. They crack me up!!!

None the less, it has taken over my news feed on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, etc, and I have absolutely no idea what anyone is talking about. I feel like I am the only person in the entire universe that does not watch this show. In fact, I don't watch very many shows at all. I have kept up with Supernatural, but even then it's just kind of... eh. I watch Dancing With the Stars, for sentimental reasons. Other than that, I'm good with reruns of Friends, Family Guy, and Chopped.

What's wrong with me???

In other news, I have taken the weekend to readjust my brain to the emotional trauma I have been battered by in the last few weeks. I feel, honestly, like I am living in a complete nightmare right now. The days don't even seem real anymore, and I can't help but ask myself how in the hell I got here in such a short time.

But the how seems less relevant now. I have made mistakes and taken chances, and here I am. I can't change what has happened. All I can do is put my head down and keep going through this storm. I've been here before. I've been through levels of hell the likes of which I never thought I would face to begin with, much less face again. I will use this as an opportunity to be humbled, to grow, and to become even stronger.

I know my worth and and I know my strength. I will make it through this, and I will continue to share this journey with you all.

I have some big things coming up this week, and I will update you each day as things continue to progress.

Positive Vibes,

Stacy (WW)